Getting ready

I leave tomorrow for my surgery and am actually feeling really positive. For the last few years I've lived into so many what if scenarios and now I just see myself getting it over with and being happy. Thank goodness because the mind trip was blowing me away really.

So here is what they are doing Friday. He is going to put me completely out. Then for at least two hours he is going to remove each rebellious vein (I have a tumor in my cheek about the size of a quarter that is made up primarily of rouge veins gone awry.).

One by one they will be cleaned out, some no bigger than the size of a spider web! Then each little tiny vien will be cautarized (I have no idea how to spell that). Once they are removed he's going to wash the spot out really good, fill it up with my own face fat (lovely) pull the skin up tight, I may be losing some skin but it's damaged; then sew the baby shut. The incision is 2.5 cm long and under my left eye.

Then I'll wake up and after a few days I'll go back and he'll pull the stitches out before it can heal all the way and Super Glue it shut.

Sounds fun eh?

I'm really happy to finally get it over with. This has been a horrible experience because I have such a vivid imagination. And I just kept on visualizing sooooo many different scenarios.

Anyway, I'm almost done with another painting. It's dandelion. Funny, it just showed up and I came home and looked up dandelion properties and they have to do with vascular, and cleansing and antibiotic..etc...gotta love the ironic play here.

Layta!