Today Lisa came to visit me. She told me it's okay to look at her scar and as I looked at her through the night, I imagined it healed.
My roomie, Pilar, made us Kitcheri. This simple stew used as the primary food in PanchaKarma, the Ayurvedic cleansing therapy, immediately brought cell stimulation. Very healing. She'll have to tell you about it. That's her process.
Then the lawyer called and I gave her figures. Time to let go of my fears about money. What I want more than anything is to be free. Free to be me. Free to surround myself with my people. Free to stop pretending and hiding so someone else can be comfortable. Free to be stinking proud of courageous living. Free to enjoy an artists' creative life without the need to know what's around every corner. Free to trust.
We walked out to the bluffs that over look the park where I take my walks. I pointed out where the ocean was, but as it was night I just got to say, "the sea is where the lights end." I showed her the power plant that I envision as a dream factory, sending out little clouds of hope and possibility.
Then as we turned, I saw the moonglow and Lisa pointed to the yellow ring on the horizon, behind Saddleback Mountain. It was the moon, at perigree, and we watched it rise and hugged.
We came back and ate some Dandelion leaves to match the energy of her new picture (check out her myspace www.myspace.com/nykkifae and see the Last Painting before I go.) After I'm done here I'll add the Dandelion entry for The Faerie Herbalism book.
It's really good to have friends on this journey.
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