Learning a few things

I haven't said much lately about the post surgery impact. For a bit I was very much in my head. That was okay, I was looking at the world through new eyes and found it magical. Then I went through a period of making myself too busy.


That didn't work very well because of the down moments when I experience the emotional rush from the physical and spiritual trauma caused by the surgery. It gets forgotten and buried.


Recently I had a "bad" day. We all know what that means as reality is not what we push away and hide, but what we face and deal with.

So again, I had this day and really found it an interesting experience. It came on as a flood of emotions that I then attached to my thinking. Not thinking then feeling...feeling and then attaching.

I attached the ideas of me being too fat, too old, too wrinkled, too saggy, too scarred, and I filled up with self pity. It was a brilliant drama with all of the making of a good made for Hallmark Movie.

It took me about 3 hours to finally come back down out of the tree and realize I was still feeling, but no longer thinking.

Then it dawned on me that I felt the same way I did before I created the story to go with it. Go figure. So the whole episode, while very entertaining, was invalid.

Hmmmmmm....now what?

So I went to a friend's house and we chatted about my mood. She analyzed, dissected, rationalized and all the while felt that she was in a losing battle.

The reason was, there was no reason. It was simply a feeling. A feeling of sadness, probably left over purging from the surgery. That is all. One cannot do much with that to fix. It is a healthy problem actually.

I told her that I had decided the best way to handle the emotion was to do nothing about it at all, but rather to allow it to flow through and be on its way. That way it holds no power over me. I need not dwell in my head nor store it for later. This energy clearly wanted release and my only job was to allow it to go.

Next day, I felt much better and am back to my "normal" (whatever that looks like) self.

In conclusion to this little bit here, please remember that all emotions are valid. They may not need to be attached to anything and may just want to let that energy out of our body to allow us to stay at ease. Hence "everyone needs a good cry now and then" no?





On a good note? Our brick and mortar store was just named Best New Store on Colfax. YAYYY!!! I’m totally thrilled by this as there has been so much work put into it. It’s awesome to get the recognition. For those who don’t know Colfax, it’s one of the longest streets in all of Denver. It goes from one end of this huge metro valley, clear to the other side! Yayyyyy!!!